I just want the world to see me

But I don't think that they understand.

Laying everything out to be broken

I just want you to know who I am.


So what's new? Still keep trying to join the gym. Today I took a towel for wiping the equipment and a towel for after my swim and shorts for swimming and planned 100% on joining the gym today. Unfortunately I forgot until I almost drove out of campus, then couldnt find a parking space anywhere withing 150m of the gym so I gave up looking and put it off another day.

Still trying to be good. But still have that inkling in the back of my head telling me to go hang out with the uni folks and get paraletic. Speaking of, I cause notable damage to my hand playing knuckles on saturday night at amy's bf's place. Played knuckles with his roommate for far too long after a bottle of jack and well my hand was so swollen the next day I had to call in sick to work that night. Today is thursday and the swelling has mostly gone down but its still quite oddly coulored. It's a giant bruise from my middle knuckles to almost my elbow. It spread so far because of all the pussy shit under the skin.

Hmm shit, I just remembered I have two parties im sposed to be at tonight. Hrrm. I should go to trippi's because well I should and because it's not too far away and also I said i'd be there because its dinner at davies. Although a guy from uni is having his 21st in the city and that'll be really fun. But then I have nowhere to stay or anything and I dont feel like trying to find my way home.

Today I had one class, in which I had to go in and get marked atendance because apparently participation is a major part in the seminars. Then I got to watch student presentations on those questions I posted about a little while ago when I have already done mine last week. What a waste of a day.

Every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all my years have gone by...